I hate when you realize that someone isn’t who you thought they were. I’m usually a pretty good judge of people when my emotions aren’t involved. They tend to muck things up for me. I forgive too easily or I notice warning signs and just ignore them. It’s irritating. Plus I think I’m still emotionally screwed up from last summer. I won’t let anyone in fully because I am afraid to go through that again. Anyway. It’s bullshit that you just decide to ignore me instead of trying to explain anything. Need to find some older girls. This is tiring.
~random sleepy thoughts
Your friend/co-worker asks you to list the five most attractive girls at work in front of another co-worker, when her sister happens to be Cute Deli Girl and is on that list. Also slightly awkward that she is on that list too but she already knows she’s cute so
Long day tomorrow. Kundla’s 9-430 and then Walmart 5-9. Starting another summer of 12-14 hour work days and always smelling like a weird combination of bbq, french fries, and Axe.
I’m not actually tired though so I’m just gonna listen to some Jack’s Mannequin and scroll tumblr from my phone.
Today was an exhausting, long, busy day at work. I felt like shit the whole time and did 5 phone contracts. Plus cleaning up after everyone else because nobody I work with actually does that ever. I got out almost an hour late. I am sleepy and cranky and whiny and just want cuddles.
Also, my summer job starts Friday. I must be nuts to be doing this again…
For so many different reasons. I decide one thing and thirty seconds later I’ve already changed my mind. Back and forth for hours. I miss one person. Then I miss another person. Then I hate myself for that. Then back to missing the first. Being angry. Being annoyed. Wanting to cry. Wanting to work out all of my frustrations with someone. Wanting to work them out with you. This is a daily issue and right now I’m too exhausted to be dealing with all of these emotions. Maybe I should stop drinking and go to sleep.
The mud run was a blast. Lots of cute girls. Sun. Getting disgusting. Spending all day with my family. Now having a drink, watching some movies and relaxing.
dear people who see my tattoos/parts of my tattoos on my arm/chest/back and decide to grab at me or tug at my clothing to look at it:
don’t fucking do that, it’s not fucking cute.
YES. Ugh the only thing I hate about warm weather is the fact that people at work think it’s okay to grab me at work just because I have visible tattoos. Like. No. You’re dirty and you smell. Don’t touch me. Don’t grab my wrist, don’t rub my arm. Just go away.
It’s incredibly frustrating. Although I’m doing my best not to let it be.
Soooo putting on The Rescuers is probably not the best idea, huh? I just don’t want to sleep. I’m not sure I trust my dreams.
Mostly I would just really like to know WHY you aren’t answering my texts…
It is nearly impossible to make it look like I have “sex hair”
Cranky AF and in disbelief that it is Wednesday already. Bleeeegh.
Because I feel like I’m bugging them/forcing then to talk to me.
And then I go hours or days without talking to them and then I get sad.
I will do this thing you tagged me in because I love you and you are awesome. But I am in no way motivated to write 11 new questions and tagged more people. Compromise? (Also gooootta keep rubbing in that you know Hayley, huh? :P )
Questions for you!
So many thoughts running through my head and I wish I could get them all out. Maybe after I get some sleep.